Ren, On March 22 we learned that my condition was too risky for me to continue working. I was to go on bed rest, which I took very hard. I cried for my freedom, my health, your safety, and the uncertainty of our future. The most comforting thing was knowing that you were growing strong despite my body's complications. We got to see you every week, moving around in my belly, with your heartbeat so strong. The beginnings of my struggle to keep you safe and growing were filled with optimistic thoughts as I started your baby registry. We also started planning a few baby showers, which I was looking forward to so much. You were going to be surrounded by so much love. You still are, just not in the way I imagined or expected then. Love, Mom