Ren, your parents called me to 'inform' me that they thought they 'might' be expecting. I laughed, they were white with surprise and some fear. "We didn't plan it this way, why now?" I laughed again, Amanda was SO happy, interupted plans mattered not to an expectant mom. A grandmother, hmmmmm..... retirement.....I was So in Ah of you from the first time I met you via video/photos/sound of these high-tech ultrasounds. You were perfect, tiny but perfect :) Preparations began for you, me so far away--you in California, me in Missouri. Visiting the baby world with Amanda for the first time, talking about pregnancy, delivery, your care, your home, travel, Ian becoming your Nanny :) you would have liked that.... I checked in on you regularly, probably more than your parents liked...every Tuesday I got a report....you were healthy and doing fine. Then my trip to see this pregnant mom, I came to your house, your momma was really being obedient and following doctors orders, laying on her side, doing her work, drinking TONS of water to help with your fluids. She came to experience DECA ICDC, stayed over night with me. I SO enjoyed having you both with me...we ordered room service, watched some 'none' TV show, called it a night. I returned home on a Sunday, returned to your side the following Tuesday. Your parents were so determined.... your momma so pail...I heard your heartbeat for the last time Wednesday morning in ER, I cried.....